Depressing Lyrics

so i have a lot of pent up emotions

so i like to text my boyfriend and my friends

so sometimes the two get mixed together

i call them potential lyrics

make excuses

but really it’s just poetry.

this is something i text to my boyfriend a few days ago

when we were talking about vicious circles

loops drive people insane, spiraling downward into oblivion, running in circles

but when we’re together we’re looping the loop in an aeroplane

spiraling into the unknown and the future

spinning in circles until we don’t know if we’re thinking or dreaming

or if any of this is real.

this is something i text him just now.

i love you so fucking much i die when your not around :(

but your coming back so I’m restraining myself from drawing blood

restraining myself from tying that knot

and jumping into bittersweet relief

restraining myself because i know I’ll see you soon

I know you’ll come back for me.

I know your coming back.

depressing stuff, huh?

just to clarify, i don’t cut myself, I’m not suicidal

but sometimes i go a little crazy and say things just so that they’ll sound good

and yeah that sounds fake, but i'm trying to write a song, and it gets combined.

he just text me with the next part of the game we’re playing

basically i text him a bunch of letters and he has to work out what they stand for.

so he just text me saying

ilysmbysaaicafab

i think it means i love you so much babe your so awesome and i cant … something. lol

What do YOU think it means? *points at you*

Bye x